A Whole New World

Greetings.

Wow, where do I even begin. The last two months have been something else. I’ve been writing in my journal pretty much daily. I haven’t been online very much at all, mostly because I want to avoid the slew of information coming out every minute about Covid-19. The world is under lockdown because of this pandemic, and life is just so different. Thankfully, I’m one of the lucky ones who was able to keep my job so my life has some sense of normalcy. It is very strange going to get groceries. Seeing everyone standing on Xs on the floor and wearing masks and gloves. Seeing stores and restaurants closed down and not knowing when they will reopen again.

Sidenote: I miss steaks grilled medium with mexican rice and cajun shrimp… damn you Jungle Jims.

I miss going to the theatre and eating nachos. I miss being able to browse what little choices we have here at the stores. The world is in such a weird state. I hope things can get back to some kind of normal by summer. If not, at least I’ll have bike season.

My pain in the ass face tooth is finally out. January came and went, and so did February, and March, and then Covid-19 came along… so it was impossible to fly out for dental surgery. It got so bad I lost night after night of sleep, and finally my doctor called a dentist and said let’s get this thing out. I have another appointment for a second wisdom tooth extraction mid-May. God help me.

And finally, the best for last, more positive news; Jeffrey. Amongst the chaos I have some light. I have a boyfriend? That feels weird to say? I don’t really talk about it to anyone but we’re happy in our bubble. My roommates like him, most importantly my DOGS like him, and he makes my heart very happy. We’ve known each other for years, but only recently reconnected. There was never a good time. There hardly ever is. But I’m glad it’s happening now. For anyone who may know Jeffrey and kind of raised an eyebrow to this post, you can feel free to ask me about it in person. The Internet doesn’t need to know everything.

Stay safe;

M.

 

Question and suggestion

Question: How do YOU start a conversation?

Suggestion: If someone asks you, “How are you?” be as honest as you can be with tact. When people respond, “Good, you?” it’s simply a pattern and is just as effective as being anti-social. Maybe it’s time we start saying how we are truly feeling. Maybe then we begin to change the conversation around mental health and wellness.

Sometimes a simple hello and a smile can mean all the difference in the outcome of someones day.

Hello, reader. How are you?

M.

 

Add a blanket

If you don’t know what you’re fighting for
it is time to discover
the reason
for which doors were made.
Spend some time
alone.
Work your body to its bones.
‘Cause you’re better off
slightly lost
than wrecking your heart –
it’s a heavy cost.
I was yours until you left me
but you’ll never get the best of me.
The night, it is weary
but adding a blanket
is better than another empty soul.

M.

buttons and zippers

You occupy a notable place
beneath my ribs
underneath will and reason.

You found your way despite the thorns and shattered glass –
Despite resistance and doubt.

I occupy a notable place
beneath your hands
stinging with lust and patience.

I found my way despite the buttons and zippers keeping us apart.

We occupy a notable place
On Johnson Hill road
beneath the oak tree
on your old brown blanket
feeling things that lack forgiveness.

M.

Frost

And in the darkness the snow glowed like faint light.
The frost tickled the tree line and whispered gusts of sparkling snow,
landing softly at our feet.
This winter will be different.
This winter we’ll be warm.

M.