Breaking Bread.

The sunlight tangoed across the dusty dashboard. Her fingers tapped to the tune of “Crazy,” by Patsy Cline.

“No one sings it quite like you Patsy,” she said aloud to no one in particular. Her window was down, the dirty western air clambered in to greet her skin.

“You’ve got a lot of nerve showin’ up here miss,” said a stranger across the way. He was sitting with his blue ball cap draped crooked on his knee while he wiped his greasy hands in a rag.

“Oh, why’s that?” she sneered back. She was not one to shy away from a good fight. He spat towards her truck. She just glared.

He stood up and turned on his heel and headed into the old excuse of a store. She clutched her .9mm hidden beneath her jacket on the passenger seat.

She’d been running now for eight days. Her cash was as short as her temper and she knew neither was going to get her much further.

She sat in complete silence for another five minutes, an eternity in doubt and fear. A bead of sweat left her brow as the sun continued to burn her arm, dance up her shoulder and melt along her chest, visible in her low cut tank top.

“If you’re going to do this, do it now goddamit,” she mouthed to herself. One of her ‘fuck it’ moments.

She simultaneously put her gun in her ass pocket and closed the door behind her. Her legs were buckling like a daisy worn out from the heat of the sun and the lack of water.

She made her way inside the store, not before noticing the wanted poster with her face and name on it taped to the inside of the scratched up storm door. She swallowed hard.

She walked calmly to the cooler and grabbed a six of Bud and a pound of hickory smoked jerky. She knicked a loaf of white bread that looked a little stale off the shelf, not really knowing why. It wasn’t her ideal meal but it would get her through a tough night in hiding on the back of Pine Ridge, away from invasive eyes.

She laid her items on the counter, along with her gun. Her hand was trembling, her finger anxious on the trigger.

The blue capped stranger behind the counter took a step back and folded his arms.

“What are you proposin’ to do with that?” he asked.

“Nothin’ if you don’t give me no trouble,” she replied.

He glanced at his shotgun atop the Coke crates under the counter. Before he could give it another thought she raised her gun and took aim. He glanced at the register and she nodded.

He stuffed the fifties and twenties in a brown paper bag, along with jerky and bread she had hesitated to put on the counter before. He folded the top of the bag properly, taking his time, and he put a single staple in the top.

“Nice package for you now miss, probably the prettiest thing you seen in a while by the looks of your hair.”

She couldn’t help but laugh despite the intensity of the moment they were sharing. She glanced quickly at the clock on the wall. It was just after three.

“You best be on your way miss,” he said, “I called the cops while you were takin’ your sweet time decidin’ to step foot in here.”

She grabbed her beer and the brown paper bag and rushed to her truck. He followed her, not really afraid of getting shot, as she threw the goods in the back seat and slammed the door behind her. She took a quick glance at him before she started the ignition. Something seemed a little familiar about him but she couldn’t place him.

She started to back out of the parking lot but she put her foot on the brake quickly. She looked back up at the door and he was still there. She doesn’t know what came over her but she yelled out to him and said, “Are you comin’ or not?”

And as if they were two little kids playing pretend he put on a devilish grin and ran for her passenger door.

It’s been a few days since they’d done this. Everyday monotony was sucking the life out of them, they did everything they could to take a break from reality. They had to get their kicks somewhere.

As she pulled out on to the highway and pressed the gas to the floor, Jeremy told her that the shop owner was in the back tied loosely to the deep freeze with the sock from his left foot stuck in his mouth. They laughed together the rest of the way home.

As they approached the driveway Jeremy unloaded her gun and locked it in a fireproof case and put it under the passenger seat.

“What do you feel like doing tomorrow Mary?” he said.

“I haven’t got that one figured out yet Jer,” she replied, putting out her cigarette on the ‘objects look closer than they appear’ line of the mirror.

She moved the shifter into park and got out of the truck. She pulled a red blazer from behind her seat and put it on, buttoning it up quickly and then put her hair up in a bun. On her way toward the door she fumbled with the lipgloss in her jeans pocket and tried to make herself presentable.

“You go on ahead Jer, get Wesley’s head out of the tv and make him clean up for supper.”

She turned back toward the truck and grabbed the brown paper bag from the back seat.

That night she cooked spaghetti for supper, and the three of them sat down and ate as if life were normal. As if the .9mm wasn’t locked in a box underneath the passenger seat of her ’88 Ford. As if Jeremy’s hands weren’t stained with grease, and the old shop keeper wasn’t mortified by the taste of his own feet.

That night, breaking bread, they were about as happy as they could be.


Open Your Eyes

The night fell like a black cloak surrounding the bay.

The snow glistens on the mountain tops from beneath the glow of the rising moon.

A polar bear and her two cubs creep quietly across the barren land, glancing carefully to and fro for predators and prey.

The darkness will keep you here, if you let it. It will devour you and any memories you keep on you.

The night is long. Sitting here in the haunting quiet all your demons quickly surface, taunting your eyesight, skewing your reality.

It doesn’t matter what weapons you hold when the terrorists are inside your head.

You sit perfectly still, straightening out your fingers, flattening your feet to the ground.


You didn’t hear a branch break. Keep inhaling.

You don’t sense movement.


You don’t sense movement.

Exhale slowly.

Somewhere around you in this augmented reality are eyes watching. Waiting.

You start humming like you did when you were young, when you ran from your grandparents house to yours in the twilight, pretending that you weren’t alone.

The moon has moved two thumb widths to the right, by your measure. The mountain peaks shadow has changed direction in defence.



Your fire dies slowly. You’re cold now, but too scared to move. The glow of the embers casts a few feet of light. What lies beyond that light? You shudder.

If you close your eyes until morning you’ll never know. Maybe it’s better this way.

Another thumb widths movement by the moon and you exhale clouds into the sky. You’re tired now. You’re being watched from all directions.

“Maybe I’ll just close my eyes and get some sleep,” you decide.

You close your eyes for a second and suddenly your face feels warm.

You smile because your memory tells you that this feels like the warmth you felt from hugging your dog Hunter.

You open your eyes and in front of you, looking into your soul not four inches from your nose is a pair of stone cold black eyes, on a large grey frame. You dare not blink, but your senses tell you this is no dog – this is a wolf. It glances downward slowly. Your heartbeat races quickly as you know this is the end.

Part of you is thankful, you’re cold, alone, and you’ve been this way for too many days to count. You close your eyes and wait.

“Will he rip my throat? Will he go for my legs? My arm?” you wonder.

You dare not breathe. Your ears are on high alert, picking up every subtle movement. But there is none. You exhale slowly, terrified to move even the slightest bit. Your breath quickens again as you hear the crunching of snow.

“Is that you?” a familiar voice says quietly. Your eyes shoot open like a bullet. A lone person stands before you in a dark green coat – you vaguely remember this person, but are too concerned about the location of the wolf.

The man senses your distress and says, “He took off north of you.”

You begin to stand slowly, bracing yourself against the snowmobile at your back that had broken down days before. The wolf tracks led off to the distance, and ended at a pair of glowing eyes. The man in green starts his snowmobile and says, “We best get you home, there’s a crowd been lookin’ for you for days now.”

You struggle your way over to his snowmobile and climb on the back. Leaving any belongings you may have left by the orange pit, glowing by your broken down ski-doo.

“Am I dreaming?” you wonder.

The engine roars and you speed along, climbing hills, whooshing down paths, crossing frozen lakes, and finally, approaching the lights of your town. You had all but forgotten that pattern of lights by the old air strip. But you crack a smile now, remembering. What a virtue it is, to remember.

When you’re faced with death, it’s easy to close your eyes. But while you’re alive, it’s best to keep them open.