A Whole New World

Greetings.

Wow, where do I even begin. The last two months have been something else. I’ve been writing in my journal pretty much daily. I haven’t been online very much at all, mostly because I want to avoid the slew of information coming out every minute about Covid-19. The world is under lockdown because of this pandemic, and life is just so different. Thankfully, I’m one of the lucky ones who was able to keep my job so my life has some sense of normalcy. It is very strange going to get groceries. Seeing everyone standing on Xs on the floor and wearing masks and gloves. Seeing stores and restaurants closed down and not knowing when they will reopen again.

Sidenote: I miss steaks grilled medium with mexican rice and cajun shrimp… damn you Jungle Jims.

I miss going to the theatre and eating nachos. I miss being able to browse what little choices we have here at the stores. The world is in such a weird state. I hope things can get back to some kind of normal by summer. If not, at least I’ll have bike season.

My pain in the ass face tooth is finally out. January came and went, and so did February, and March, and then Covid-19 came along… so it was impossible to fly out for dental surgery. It got so bad I lost night after night of sleep, and finally my doctor called a dentist and said let’s get this thing out. I have another appointment for a second wisdom tooth extraction mid-May. God help me.

And finally, the best for last, more positive news; Jeffrey. Amongst the chaos I have some light. I have a boyfriend? That feels weird to say? I don’t really talk about it to anyone but we’re happy in our bubble. My roommates like him, most importantly my DOGS like him, and he makes my heart very happy. We’ve known each other for years, but only recently reconnected. There was never a good time. There hardly ever is. But I’m glad it’s happening now. For anyone who may know Jeffrey and kind of raised an eyebrow to this post, you can feel free to ask me about it in person. The Internet doesn’t need to know everything.

Stay safe;

M.

 

A regular winter’s day

I’m constantly uploading the images from my iPhone to my computer and wiping my phone. I have a pretty strict organization system for my images and for what makes the cut. Obviously, my kid Grace is the exception to this rule. Just can’t have enough pictures lol.

This pretty much summarizes the content of my phone at any given time:

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Back in a snap!

M.

Little Silver Linings

To be honest, they’re more like giant silver linings. The whole damn cloud is silver.

I’m Moving

Yes! I’m not leaving town though, I’m just moving from renting my (sooo me) bedroom in my friends house into my own place! I’ll be living in a cabin/cottage (with shower and WiFi, aka “the dream”) near the water just at the edge of town. I couldn’t be more excited to start this new chapter in my life. I can’t wait to make it my own. To sit and read near the giant living room window with the wood stove going with ________ by my side. Which leads me to my next point…

I’m adopting a dog!

I guess it wouldn’t come as such a surprise if you review the past two years of Travelling Infinity – there are a LOT of dog photos. However, all of those dogs weren’t mine. The awesome couple that I moved in with in January of 2013 have a number of dogs of their own and frequently foster dogs and puppies so my life was always full of woofs.

kimo in winterSince I lost my dog in 2010 I have felt this massive void in my heart. I didn’t want to really let any other dog in, and to be honest, I didn’t. Kimo was a huge part of my life. He was my very best friend and he always knew when I needed him most. Now that I’m moving into my own home I want someone/thing to help me transition, and seeing as how I’ll be living outside of town – and to my knowledge the only one in the area – it sure would be nice to have some company.

I’ve been checking out dogs available for adoption online and also stopped by the local SPCA to see what was there. I have my eye on one dog who is 2.5 years old, a Labrador-mix named Rusty. And I also walked another dog, a Rottie-X named Skully. I’ll be playing with both from time to time to see how they fit into my life, and with any hope, I’ll have a wonderful new companion before long.

I’m Changing my blog

DSC00321Travelling Infinity, name wise, has always represented one moment in my life for me. A moment that very few people know about, a moment that quickly made me realize how I was taking my life for granted and wasn’t looking at the bigger picture. When I attended college outside Labrador I was caught up in a lot of drama. I let everything get under my skin, and while it may not have been true, I felt like I had no one to turn to. I felt helpless and afraid, and I didn’t want to think anymore. I remember the moment as though it had happened a minute ago. I was lying in my bed staring at my ceiling with a bottle of pills in my hand. I couldn’t even see as I had been crying so much. I held on to the bottle so tight my hand started to hurt…

And then I woke up. It was the next morning and the bottle was on the floor. Still full. Unopened. That moment when my eyes opened I realized what I had almost done. I realized how many people I would have hurt had I taken the pills. I realized that most of my problems were centered around one person that caused me so, so much grief. I realized I was worth way more than the one person that came into my life and left like a strong gust of wind. I realized my family was right. My conscience, though buried, was right.

From that moment I knew things would get better. I had to keep going no matter what. And slowly my life got built into something I became proud of. Thus the name Travelling Infinity; keep going, forever.

That was nearly 8 years ago. Today I don’t find myself with those same struggles. I have found a greater confidence, I have learned to appreciate and value every relationship that comes into my life whether it’s for a season, a year, or forever. I admit I’ve done wrong by some people, but because of that event that happened 8 years ago I realized that life was short, and if you find yourself becoming unhappy then changes have to be made. It’s not always as simple as it looks on the outside. Everyone has their internal struggles, but you must think about yourself in the end.

And so…

I’ll soon be packing up for the move. I’m viewing and hoping to find the perfect four-legged companion. The quest begins for a new blog name. And I am ever, ever so thankful.

Love always,

M.

Think. Jump.

I write the same story over and over
It’s a hell of a lie
I can’t find the sign
Significance
I’m waiting for that moment
The sun hits my face
Ahhhh
There it is

M.