Journal Entries

Eight Years

Yesterday marked the 8th anniversary of Color of Outdoors. Every year I remain amazed that I kept this thing going. Some months I only post once or twice (sadly) and others, I get a rush of inspiration and almost post twice a day!

Thank you for coming along this journey with me. If you’re new, welcome. If you’ve been here for a while, cheers!

Some updates from me:
– I have a new job!
– I’ve discovered Spotify (it’s awesome)
– I’m back on my bike again and loving it
– It doesn’t seem like summer wants to arrive here
– As chair of the Melville Public Library board I’m happy to announce we’re rolling out a bunch of new summer programming! (If you are in the area, follow our Facebook page)
– I’m gradually putting together new poetry and saving it for a potential new book, which is why there hasn’t been as many posts lately.

Til’ next time!

M.

Journal Entries

fact checking

  • People want each other but they don’t need each other
  • The air is so fresh here
  • Biking is cheaper than therapy
  • None of my plants ever died on my watch
  • Teaching someone english is not the same as teaching them how to love
  • People who never listen to your concerns don’t respect you
  • Tattoos are personal so the only opinion that matters is your own
  • Dog hair is basically a condiment
  • Making ends meet shouldn’t mean ending your personal life
  • Drink more water. Always more.
  • The world is waiting for exploration, it’s ok if you can’t afford it right now
  • Pain is the loudest voice
  • If you smile, I’ll smile
  • I may never be a writer but i will always write
  • Even family has vested interests; it’s ok to say no
  • tineye
  • Only children are adults at birth. I am harder to love because I embrace the loneliness
  • I am still trying to figure out what it means to be Métis

M.

Journal Entries · Photography

Don’t be shaky, be sure.

I woke up at 4am the other night with that line in my head for some reason. Very bizarre. But it was important enough to me that I wrote it down. A couple of hours later when I got out of bed to start the day I had this crazy urge to create.. so I plugged in my Wacom tablet and picked up the pen and started some digital art. That was so weird. That practically never happens.

That is a big problem for me, or, a big obstacle at least. I am struggling so much with my creativity lately.. finding it very hard to write anything besides my daily gripes/cheers into my journal. I am continuing to do that however, and read a little bit daily. I’m trying not to pressure myself, but I really wish I could write like I used to. Oddly enough, I think I can only write when I’m sad or angry about something and I haven’t been lately. I should be thankful for that I suppose, but I definitely need to find a way to disconnect those two things. My writing should not be connected to only bad feelings, but also good ones.

I’ve started writing lists. I picked up this book called 52 Lists for Happiness by Moorea Seal and I’m about to write in my third list. I don’t know how I’ll feel about this at the end of the year, but I am definitely going to make a point to do this once a week. I’m willing to bet I’ll be happy that I did this project when I’m ringing in 2019.

Happiness is a concept I’ve been reading a lot about lately, having just finished the Little Book of Lykke by Meik Wiking. I’m about to start Lagom by Niki Brantmark. To me, Scandinavia is so fascinating. The culture, the design, the landscapes… everything. I’ve started following different tourism and local blogger accounts out of Norway as a kind of digital dream board for my future travel goals. I know I’m a long way from visiting Oslo or Bergen, but I figure if I always have these beautiful images in my daily view that it’ll keep me dreaming enough that it might happen.

I’ll leave you with some images from this month, a mixed bag of moments.

Don’t be shaky, be sure.

Love,
M.